Location: New York, United States
Receptionist, caregiver. Some college and working on going back! Believe that we can all work together and create the change we want to see. Empower each other. Spread love and awareness. Be kind.
How has Beating Eating Disorders helped you?
After treatment, I replaced all the fitspos and #bikinibody accounts with empowering women and recovery pages. This page has had by far the most relatable and encouraging quotes. I was also given a chance to be featured. That simple act of kindness, sharing my story and helping others hear my voice has been liberating. It was one of the little pushes along the way that tells me: keep going, you can do some good.
Where are you in your recovery journey?
I am chillin somewhere between recovering and recovered. It is a question I don’t particularly know how to answer because I have come very far but I’m not sure how much left there is to go. While simultaneously hoping there is an end in sight.
What are your future recovery orientated goals?
My recovery isn’t linear. No one’s is. I have up and down moments, but I am secure and confident enough to say that my mental illness does not control my life. I have taken back the reigns and will roll with the punches. As I continue to work on my recovery, I also spread awareness. Right now, selflove is my passion. My immediate goals are to begin motivational speaking in schools.
What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you? What has been the most harmful?
Helpful: “keep doing what your doing”
Harmful: ANY comments regarding body image
Share some of your recovery insight.
My mom has always said to me: “without faith, you have nothing.” Even in your darkest moments you have to keep the faith. And if you can’t find it, please find a support that will give it back to you. You cannot do this alone and there are people that want to help, if you would just open yourself up and look in the right places.
Is there anything else you would like to add that you want people to know? Any advice to give to fellow sufferers?
You are never alone. Be as honest as you can with yourself and your supports. Voice the crazy thoughts, yell about the strongest urges, cry, vent, write. It always seems pointless beforehand (and sometimes during) but doing those things will free you. Most people in recovery realize that they were holding way too much in. Recognize the things that don’t make you happy and let them go. Recognize how you should be treated. Tell people what you need. Learn to say no. Stop being a perfectionist and let yourself make mistakes (Then call a friend and laugh at your mistake). Your grades do not define you, your body does not define you, and nor does your productivity. This is just a CURRENT life situation. This too shall pass. Be the person you want to be. She’s in there.