Name: Tori L.
Location: Minnesota, USA
I’m a senior in college. Going for psychology and hoping to become an eating disorder therapist! I enjoy being outside, reading, and cuddling my puppy.
How has Beating Eating Disorders helped you?
The affirmations are very uplifting and inspirational. Beating Eating Disorders reminds me that I’m not alone and recovery is possible.
Where are you in your recovery journey?
I’m still working towards a day where I don’t have to worry about numbers or reflections, but I’m closer than when I started and I continue to get closer each and every day.
What are your future recovery orientated goals?
My future recovery orientated goals is to be happy and comfortable in my own skin, to love myself, to treat myself the way I would treat another person. I want to have a healthy relationship with myself, with food, and with exercise. I hope to be fully recovered so I can help others beat this terrible illness.
What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you? What has been the most harmful?
The most helpful thing someone has said to me would probably be when my treatment team tells me that in doing the right thing, that I’ve come a long way, that they believe that I can be fully recovered someday, or when people show that they care. The most harmful thing people have said to me is that I’m “looking good” or “you’re really skinny” or “you need to go eat a cheeseburger.” These are not helpful things to say. They can be very triggering. It’s most helpful when people don’t bring up the way I look or the way I eat, but instead acknowledge that I’ve come a long way in my recovery and that I’m stronger than the eating disorder. We all have the power to beat the eating disorder.
Share some of your recovery insight.
I think recovery is one of the most difficult things a person could go through. It’s a total rollercoaster, with all the ups and downs, twists and turns. But it is possible. With motivation and support, anything is possible. You may not believe you have a problem, but if you do, don’t deny yourself the help you deserve. Having a treatment team is the most helpful thing I have experienced through this journey. I may get angry with them, I may want to quit, they can be the most frustrating people in my life, but in the end they are the ones who are trying to save your life. They are trying to give you your life back. Recovery is insanely difficult. Relapsing is going to happen, maybe more than once, but no matter how many times it takes, no many how many times you go to treatment, recovery is possible. And it’s so brave and so strong to keep trying.
Is there anything else you would like to add that you want people to know? Any advice to give to fellow sufferers?
My advice would be to seek help as soon as you feel like something may be wrong or as soon as you feel like your relationship with food or exercise is negative. It probably will still be difficult to overcome, but the sooner you get to the battle, the better. I would also tell someone else suffering with an eating disorder to never, ever give up. I would tell them that they are incredibly strong and brave. They are capable and deserve recovery. Everyone deserves the life they dream of.