Name: Madison M.
Location: Minnesota, United States
I’m currently a junior in college studying Nutrition/Dietetics and Psychology. My goal is to become a Registered Dietitian and work with individuals who have eating disorders to recover and reclaim their life back. I love cats, reading, getting lost in nature, cooking, and yoga.
How has Beating Eating Disorders helped you?
Following Beating Eating Disorders has been such an incredible experience. Having a positive and supportive community is so important in recovery and I have found that with the page. From sharing body positivity posts to resources to stories from real people, you can tell the individuals behind Beating Eating Disorders genuinely care about raising awareness and helping everyone on their journey to recovery. The inclusiveness of all eating disorders, body shapes, genders, and even other mental illnesses is amazing, it really is a community that everyone can truly feel appreciated and safe in.
Where are you in your recovery journey?
I am slowly beginning to start my recovery journey again after a period of relapse.
What are your future recovery orientated goals?
My biggest recovery goal is to be happy. I want to take back the joy and love I used to have for life and for myself that my eating disorder stole from me. I want to rediscover who I truly am, because for so long I saw myself as only my disorder and that is NOT who I am.
What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you? What has been the most harmful?
The most helpful thing in my journey hasn’t been something someone said, but a quote: :”Where there is life, there is hope.” It’s a simple reminder that as long as you’re alive, as long as you keep pushing, there is always hope for things to get better. Even in the darkest days of living with your eating disorder, as long as you keep fighting, the hope and light for recovery will always be there.
The most harmful thing I’ve had said to me was probably from a coworker who, after I confided in them about my struggles, said “But you don’t look sick.” With those five little words, I felt more invalidated than I have in my whole life. At the time, I was not underweight (In fact, through almost all of my journey with ED I have been a “normal” weight.) Hearing that I didn’t look sick enough to them was so detrimental to my perception of myself. I didn’t feel that I deserved recovery because maybe I wasn’t really that sick if I appeared healthy to people. Maybe I was being over dramatic and my symptoms weren’t as bad as I thought they were. It really threw me off my road to recovery.
Share some of your recovery insight.
Be honest. Be passionate. Get angry at your eating disorder.
Eating disorders are destructive, they are ugly and do not discriminate. It doesn’t matter your weight, shape, gender, age, or race. None of that matters, what matters is that you deserve recovery. You deserve to take back your life and be free. Remember that recovery is not a walk in the park. It is daunting and terrifying but it is also beautiful and rewarding. No matter where you are in your journey, never give up hope that one day you can and will be free from this.
Is there anything else you would like to add that you want people to know? Any advice to give to fellow sufferers?
Don’t be afraid to ask for help. Recovering is hard enough, but doing it on your own is almost impossible. Reach out when you need it, ask for help from your support group, don’t hold back how you are feeling.