Location: Minnesota, USA
I have a full-time job in sales and go to college part-time. My hobbies are spending time with my loving husband and our 3 dogs. I also love getting lost in a fiction book or reading the gospel.
How has Beating Eating Disorders helped you?
Beating Eating Disorders has been a main source of support for me. I stumbled across it last summer and couldn’t miss a post. The Beating Eating Disorders team has always been so responsive and supportive, and their constant encouraging posts helped me make the decision to go to treatment.
What are your future recovery orientated goals?
My future goals are to be able to enjoy life to to fullest again. I’m fortunate enough to remember before my eating disorder, so I know it’s possible to live a life free of the chains of an eating disorder. I used to say I wanted to be that girl again, but now I think once I consider myself “fully recovered” that I’ll be a whole new, even more awesome version of myself.
What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you? What has been the most harmful?
The most helpful thing I’ve been told is by my husband…He loves me no matter what, for exactly who I am and my body weight has nothing to do with that, and above all wants me to be healthy. The most harmful things people say is that I look healthier or that they’re glad I’m “better now”. Being told I look healthy still has a negative connotation for me, and being told they’re happy I’m better makes me feel a lot of pressure to be perfect, even though my anorexic thoughts are still extremely loud.
Is there anything else you would like to add that you want people to know? Any advice to give to fellow sufferers?
I want anyone suffering right now who is too scared to go to treatment that it helps SO much. Sure, I still struggle, but I’ve made long strides, and they equipped me with the skills to combat the fight. I also feel SO much better physically and mentally. There are bad body image days but try to focus on the energy you feel.