I find Easter one of the most difficult times of the year second only to Christmas. I have had disordered eating since I was 14 and I’m now 42. I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa binge-purge subtype two years ago but was only referred for specialist treatment a few months ago.
I find it so difficult being surrounded by chocolate, cakes and all things sweet that Easter brings, as well as the huge family gatherings where food is always the main focus. I end up having an internal battle with myself and my eating disorder, trying not to eat, then being persuaded by family to eat something only to then end up binging before purging and then wanting to escape for a very long run.
However, this year there is one big difference to all the previous years, this year my family now knows about my eating disorder! I’m not sure how this will change the dynamics or how people will react, all I do know is that they want to support me and help me through this. Telling them was one of the most painful and difficult things I have ever had to do, but I felt that if I shared what I was going through then it would mean I could no longer hide and would have to face it head on.
Wish me luck and be brave those of you suffering with an eating disorder, find the courage to tell someone. Showing your vulnerability can be hard but it’s the first step to beating the eating disorder, and you can’t do it alone. It is never too late to ask for help, kill the eating disorder before it kills you and believe that recovery is possible. Take care of yourselves beautiful people, you are worth it.