Name: Erin M.
Location: NY, U.S.
Ethnicity/Nationality/Religion/Race: American, Irish
I am a college student hoping to eventually go into the field of nutrition, animal lover, doodler and musician.
How has Beating Eating Disorders helped you?
When I’m scrolling through my homepage on Instagram, no matter what my current emotions are, I’m pretty much guaranteed to see positive and empowering posts by Beating Eating Disorders that are always able to make me smile and get out of my head for a little while.
Where are you in your recovery journey?
I’ve been suffering from bulimia with anorexic tendencies for about three and a half years now and I began my recovery process four months ago when I was in an extremely dark place and at the worst stage of my ED. I’ve been in an intensive outpatient program for almost a month and a half and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so good and hopeful about recovery!!! I’ve made some progress, but I still have a veryyyyyy long way to go, but I always try to remember that speed doesn’t matter because forward is forward and it’s the little victories I have each day that will get me closer to recovery.
What are your future recovery orientated goals?
One day, when I finally achieve recovery, I want to do everything in my power to help those still suffering to do the same as I did. That is why I intend to finish college and start a career as therapeutic nutritionist specializing in eating disorders. Another driving force of my recovery is to one day be able to start a family and have the ability to be a body positive role model for my children.
What is the most helpful thing someone has said to you? What has been the most harmful?
The most helpful thing someone has said to me throughout my recovery process is that recovery IS NOT a linear process. There will be bumps in the road, relapse and moments of hopelessness, but as long as that road is on an upward hill, you’re on your way to being free and finally having a full life. The most harmful thing came from my own brother… I won’t say exactly what it was, but it was something that was incredibly insensitive and damaging toward my recovery. My family members do this on a regular basis and it causes me a lot of pain to know that they are unwilling to educate themselves on the matter and unwilling to support me through this. On the other hand, I have made so many wonderful life-long friends in recovery who would never try to sabotage or hurt my recovery in any way and I know will always have my back if I need anything- they’ve become my family